The Day Has Come

Pretty much ever since I went back to work after Emmy was born, I have been dreading the day work wants me to be in the office more than 3 days a weeks. Well, that dreaded day has come and I am not happy about it. I don't typically write about my job and what happens at the office but things have been extremely hectic and lots of changes are in the works. For the next while I am going to have a lot more work and consequently, they want me in the office more. I always felt as though I had a good balance because I was with her more than I was not and now that balance is changing. I can't imagine being away from her 4 days a week. I had to go into work on Wednesday so my mom came down and just going in that extra day was exhausting. I won't even begin to talk about how much we'll be paying for daycare. My company will be covering the extra cost for another day but there is no $ amount you can put on the time I get to be home with my little monkey. I don't know exactly when I have to start going in but within the next month or so. Should I be appreciative of the time I did get to spend at home with her? ABSOLUTELY. Is it hard to not be envious of the moms I know who don't have to work outside of the home, or can do it part time? YOU BET. Should I even be comparing situations? No... I never thought or wanted to be a working mom let alone a full time working mom. No, I am not in the mood to look on the bright side but I guess tomorrow is another day. There isn't anything I can do to change the situation so bitching isn't really going to help, but it is okay to do once in a while - right?