10 Months!

Dear Ryan,

 

I cannot believe you are already 10 months old!  I wish I could freeze time NOW.  You are so much fun these days, full of personality, noises, giggles and of course facial expressions.  You squeal at your sister, grunt for food and sound like darth vador pretty much all the time.  You have more facial expressions than anyone I know and constantly make everyone around you laugh and smile.

 

You are learning the word “no”.  You shake your head but then continue on anyway and smile back with the devilish smile of yours. 

 

You love to eat, I mean LOVE to eat.  Fruit, veggies, meat, salmon, French toast, dirt, grass.  You name it and you will eat it. 

 

You know your “dada”, “mmay” and of course your “mama”, every time you say my name and reach your arms up, my heart melts. You crawl across the room to me muttering “mama, mama” and I love it every time.

 

You love to play with the play kitchen and all the plastic veggies, any sort of balls and cars but your favorite toy is one of the plastic arm bracelets.  You carry that thing everywhere.  And you love music, you know which buttons to hit to make the music go and do it over and over.  You can clap and do so often because you love the sound it makes.

 

I catch you giggling to yourself sometimes and I always wonder what is so funny.  I hope you always find amusement in the little things.

 

Every time I open the fridge no matter where you are, you bee line it for the open door.  However, I am faster than you and I know that really pisses you off!

 

Your blanket (which I am pretty sure you are starting to call baba like your sister) is your everything.  Your whole body shakes in excitement when I hand it to you. 

 

You love when I read you books and giggle every time I scratch the elephants ears. 

 

You genuinely love the park.  Grunt and flap your arms when we approach one even though all you can do it swing in the swings and sit on the slide.  I think you just like to hang with your big sis.

 

You chill out in the stroller for hours and love to cruise the hood in the red car. 

 

You go nuts for the bath.  Cannot get in it fast enough.  You only want to stand so I spend the whole time yelling at you to sit down! 

 

You love chewing on your tooth brush and freak out when I take it away. 

 

You are standing for multiple seconds at a time and I know it is just a matter of time before you are walking.  Sniff, sniff, I am just not ready for that yet.

 

Okay, now if you can just start sleeping through the night.  I know, I miss you in the middle of the night too but we will see each other again in the morning.  There is no need to wake up multiple times a night screaming so I come running.  Yes, I know this is partially my fault since I do it  but let’s try to stop this together okay?  People tell me to let you cry but I can hear the sadness in your loud upset cry and can’t bring myself to let you cry any longer.  Now, if I do come running to pick you up, please don’t cry when I sit down.  You are 25 pounds and rocking and walking with you is not so easy these days.  And if you do fall asleep on my shoulder don’t open your eyes the second I put you back in your crib like you’ve been fake sleeping for the

last 20 minutes while my back is breaking.  Lastly, 5:30am is way too early to wake up.  Just you wait and one day you will learn. 

 

Despite the fact that you wake me up multiple times a night (for the past 10 months) I love you more than anything in the world.  You are the chubbiest, cutest, happiest, funniest little boy and I love you so much!